So much to say... So little time

Yup I have a lot to say, Do I have time to say it? Probably not. Because all I do is work these day. I live, eat, breathe, work. Some days are better than others. I hardly ever get to read blogs I follow, I barely get to read my new kindle. I never get to cross stitch. The nights i don't have Ryan which I consider me time, I spend working. So I can spend time with him on the other nights. Which lets face it the poor kid gets picked up at 5:45 we make it home by 6. He eats plays for a little bit gets in the shower at 7:30 we read a book and lights out at 8. Some people might think I am crazy that I put him in bed that early but trust me he needs it. If its a little later than that he gets very emotional and is struggling to stay awake. Anyways with all that said, There will be a first day of school post coming soon. He loves school by the way. He even like before and after care because he gets to be with the big kids to. So Stay tuned. hopefully I will get to the post this weekend. Oh and Ryan got a black eye at school yesterday. No big deal, he was a trooper and it doesn't look to bad.

It's happening....

I thought this day would never come. I never really wanted it to and yet I did. My baby is growing up. He is 6 and he is starting Kindergarten on Thursday. As I write this blog I am starring at the screen through the pools of tears gathering in my eyes. I think of all the thing Ryan and I have been through and I rejoice, he is my buddy, my number 1 fan and my biggest supporter and I am his. He is so excited, he has been waiting for this the whole year and it has finally come. I on the other hand have been dreading it all year. Even though Ryan goes to daycare and I have dealt with leaving him everyday, it is still different. It's a milestone in his life. Most people think of it has his first, but with the first comes the last. Wednesday will be his last day of daycare full time, it will be his last time to walk down the halls that he has been at for the past year and a half, the halls where I know the teachers that love my child. He is no longer considered a preschooler, he has arrived to a full fledged school ager. That brings me to tears.

I labeled the school supplies tonight, loaded them into the backpack. We bought the teacher a gift for meet the teacher day. It's ready and waiting.  We have the school uniform, the new shoes, the awesome lunch pail. Even the first day of school breakfast bought. All that's left are the tears, the pictures, and the prayers.

So here we go... It's going to be a wild ride, the beginning of the end. My baby's journey to manhood. I know he will make this mama proud.

"Train up a child in the way he should go, and even when he is old he will not depart from it." Proverbs 22:6

Say a little prayer

I am going shopping for more purple paint colors tonight.

 You might want to say a little prayer for purple and the paint guy at Lowe's.

 We might be on a first name basis by the end of the night.

Hopefully, I will be able to paint tonight, I definitely know what color I want in the bathroom so that will probably be getting done tonight the bedroom might have to wait.

Then tomorrow I will be enjoying another soccer game, I am thinking this one won't be as cold so pretty excited about that!

Have a great weekend Ya'll

Purple, do not forsake me!

Holy cow, I haven't blogged in almost 2 months, I am so sorry. Well not like anyone cares but they might. I guess nothing to exciting has been going on lately. Well that's not totally true Ryan started soccer a few weeks ago and  had his first soccer game last Saturday. It was miserable cold and exciting! I will blog about that later.

Right now, I am sending out a plea! I haven't decorated my bedroom or bathroom since I moved in 3 years ago. Why? Not sure I think it's because I had moved 3 times in the last 3 years that I just never pictured myself staying there that long. That I didn't want to repaint because it wouldn't be neutral and then I would have to repaint when I did want to sell the house and the list goes on. So i am finally ready to pain, to make my bedroom a haven to get some stuff out of storage and to put my stamp on it.

So for most of you who know me knows that I love shabby-chic. I love the flowers and the whites and the pastels, I love antiques and painted roughed up furniture, quilts, transferware and so fourth. I have all the accessories I want to put in my room, except my furniture I don't like it and I want new to me. I have plans to steal an iron bed at my moms house and have it re-done. The problem is I don't know how to do it or where to take it. I am currently scouring blogs and the Internet for some type of tutorial.

Then my next project is either to paint my chest of drawers or find another set. I would be fine with finding a new set and giving the ones I have now to Ryan. It would probably work in his room better and I would really like an armoires instead of a chest of drawers because it would hide the hideous TV. Then I would be good to go.

But anyways the whole purpose of this blog post is because of paint. I want to paint my room purple and I can not find the right shade. I want soft subtle purple not pinkish purple or whitish purple or oh wow that is purple. I have bought 4 different paint samples from Lowe's and painted them on the wall, still no luck. I think some of my problem is my bedding even though I like it, I will probably have to find something else which will be a whole other fiasco in itself.

So please pray that I will maintain sanity that I won't have a room painted a million different shades of purple and that I will be able to make up my mind.

Authenticity

So many people are looking for authenticity today. You see it wherever you go. Facebook, TV, Twitter and so much more. They want to know who and what is real. I struggle with it on a day to day basis. Is this ad really what it says it is, will I really get this tv at this price or is there some kind of catch? Is this person who they say they are? Or do they just want to make themself look good?

My struggle with authenticity comes on a more spiritual outlook. So as I began to question authenticity I wanted to know the definition.

Authenticity - refers to the truthfulness of origins, attributions, commitments, sincerity, devotion and intentions.

Sincerity struck me as the key word. How sincere is my walk with Christ. Can people see my authenticity? Or I am just a girl that has made it this far in a walk with Christ but can drop off the face of the "church" planet anytime.

As my experience in the religious system I have seen so many people come and go. I have seen teenagers that were sold out for Jesus now in there adult life not even darken the door of a church. I have seen people in there 20's and 30's raised in the church that get hurt and they no longer go back to the church system.

To be honest it scares me. What if that is me? What if I gave up? What if I quit?

Luckily, I am no longer in the church system. I have a wonderful pastor and worship minister that inspire me weekly. That God has ordained them to be in my life and He continues to use them weekly in my life to help meet my spiritual need and to be a tool in the growth of my spiritual walk. For that I am thankful.

I am thankful that I no longer have to worry if I will be one of those people. Because I know that I will walk in authority in my relationship with Christ. That this isn't something I will give up on. No way no how. I will leave a legacy for my family.

That is what is most important to me my walk with Jesus and to leave a legacy for my family and future family. My son's future wife, my future grandchildren. To build our house on a firm foundation not sinking sand.  To be true sold out followers for Jesus Christ. That no one will be able to question on what is authentic and what is not. It black or white not gray.

Sunday at our service we sang "Blessed be the Name". Let me tell you something when you see your 5 year old little boy get excited to sing that song and he knows the words and he can rock out to it. That is what excites me, that is what moves me, that is when I know I have done a good job and that is what makes this journey worth it even more.

Have a great week and live an authentic life

Catching up

So as you noticed I haven't posted the last 2 days leading up to Christmas. I guess the holidays got the best of me and I either got way to tired or way to busy. Rest assured, we did get in everything planned and it has all been well documented with the camera. I am just going to combine the 23rd thru the 24th on this post. So sorry if it is overly long.

December 23- Baking cookies for Santa

Well we couldn't find just a regular sugar cookie mix at the Dollar store they were sold out, but they did have one box left of funfetti sugar cookies (score)! It was fun did the trick and we had a great time baking the cookies. First of all I had gotten off work early that day, Ryan went shopping with my mom to buy me my Christmas present (the kid has great taste, of course he did learn from the two best people his mom and nanny). When he got home we took naps, long naps. He slept till 7 and that usually means we are both up late. So we started baking cookies at 9,

then we played the wii and then at 11 we loaded up and went to Reasors to buy dessert because I didn't feel like making it this year and I wanted to avoid crowds. I know I looked like a winner walking in the Reasor's at 11 p.m. with my 5 year old, but hey we had naps and we weren't going anywhere the next day. Anyways we never got around to decorating the cookies because then we were tired and we slept.

December 24-frosting cookies and fondue

So we woke up Christmas Eve Ryan at 7:30 excited it was Christmas Eve, me at 9 because I was exhausted. I went ahead and pulled my new Kreuig out of the box and plugged in it and proceeded to try a million different kinds of coffees and then I spent the rest of the day in the bathroom, yikes! Won't do that again. Sorry TMI, Anyways so we got around to frosting cookies,

picking out the best 2 and putting them on Santa's plate for the evening. I had a special secret Santa mission to accomplish so we got ready I took Ryan to my mom's house and I ran all over Green Country. I finally made it to my brothers house that evening where I was promptly told by my 5 year old that I was late and the last one to come here. Then the festivities began for the last several Christmas eve's and for a lot of my child hood we had fondue. Back before it was popular (I know it was popular in the 70's but not so much in the 80's and 90's ok) back before chocolate and cheese fondue and we just used oil and cooked different meats. Time has evolved on how we cook the fondue and now we all have fondue pots and we bring them out this time of the year. Well Ryan loved the meat fondue, he didn't try dipping in the chocolate or the cheese but just ate the stuff plain.

After fondue we had present time and it was great, I got everything I ordered myself (ha ha, it's true). Ryan had a great time and then we went home.

He said his sad goodbye's to duke (elf on the shelf) put milk in Santa's cup got his Christmas jammies on and then he went to bed. Then the waiting game began. I was so excited on what Santa was bringing Ryan I couldn't sleep at all.

Advent Calendar

23rd- Silly putty

24th-  More magnets

December 22- Game night

So we were going to do board games but we decided to do the Wii instead. Ryan has never been much into video games, but he loves him some wii bowling and he is good, he beats me every time. I wish you could be there and here all of his comments he had me laughing all night long, here are a few snapshots of the evening. Look carefully at his mouth he has to have his tongue sticking out to play it cracks me up.

he got an i spare(nice spare) and was super excited

Today was the 22nd day of the advent and he got horse trading cards